Monday, December 15, 2008

Stuck

My mom's in the hospital.  

She's Ok... I think.  But she's in pain.  She's been sick for awhile ~ just a cold or so I thought.  Each day has been tougher than the one before.  She's had a hard time breathing and the coughing just won't stop.  She's been to the doctor several times and the antibiotics, decongestants, inhalers and cough syrup weren't working.  

Saturday night she passed out.

Yesterday she was taken to the E.R. and they discovered the cause of the breathing difficulty ~ fluid around her heart.   This makes me nervous because about 8 years ago she had a minor heart attack.  I'm not sure how strong her heart is now.

Today she had a catheter inserted to drain the one liter (!!) of fluid away from her heart.  They are testing the fluid to make sure it's the result of a virus, like they suspect.  If all goes well, she'll be going home tomorrow.  They have to ascertain that the fluid doesn't return before she can be released.

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She's in good hands... my dad's, my sister's, assorted friends and family members that are close by.  Doctors, nurses, the whole bit.

But I feel like I should be there, too.  Helping to make sure she's lying down and resting.  Finishing up the holiday decorating that she's been too sick to finish.  Helping my sister wrap the presents that have been piling up, unattended.  Fixing her meals, adjusting her blankets.  Taking care of her like she took care of me not three months ago as I healed from the twins' birth.

We have purchased plane tickets to go home anyway... just not for another week.  Changing the dates would cost $1,000.  Driving alone with the boys is another option but no less expensive.  

She says she's fine, not to come.  And I think that our being there might cause more stress... but I hate that I'm not.

She's always been the first one I call when I need someone to take care of me.  She drops everything and hops on a plane within hours of my phone call.  Now it's my turn to reciprocate and I'm here.  

I feel awful.

I should be there but for another week and a half, I'm here.

10 comments:

Amanda said...

In many ways you are already there and I'd wager she knows that. Hang in there, store up everything you can from those wonderful guys of yours to see you through.

Hugs.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry.

Forsythia said...

A magic carpet would be great at a time like this, but unfortuantely none is available. Soon you'll be there, and, by that time, she'll be ready for company. She and all her helpers know that you'd be there is you could.

Anonymous said...

Prayers your way, Amy. Thank God there are other people near and dear to watch over her until you arrive.

Natalia said...

I am so sorry to hear! I think i know what you mean about not being able to be with her even though she has been there for you. I have felt the same thing with my mom over various issues. I'm sure the week will go by quickly though, hang in there. I wish your mom and your family the best!

La Gringa Sonria said...

We'll be praying for her! I can totally understand how it would be hard to be so far from her! Ugh!!

She will so appreciate your presence next week, though!

Anonymous said...

Sending prayers and positive energy your way and off to your mom, too. As a retired nurse I can tell you once that fluid is gone she will be feeling intensely better. And she is where she needs to be, and home she will be wiped for a while and need tons of rest. When you do arrive, she'll be weak but restored and ready for you and your family. And she knows you WANT to be there, which is the important thing, after all.
See mine for my own ER trip today with Doc.

flutter said...

((you))

Jennifer said...

Oh, goodness. It is so scary when a loved one is sick and even more difficult when you want to be RIGHT THERE and you can't be...at least at the moment. Any update for us, yet? I'm sending prayers and good thoughts.

thirtysomething said...

Oh Hon. She knows you want to be there, and in all ways but physical, you are. Sending positive thoughts and good vibrations your way. Update as you can.