This first trimester is strange to me... We are technically almost 4 weeks already. Yet I hardly feel pregnant. The idea that there is a teeny tiny little person in my tummy again takes some getting used to. I don't feel pregnant, yet my life style is already changing. I'm monitoring more carefully what goes into my body... the physical activity that I partake in... But my tummy is still flat~ish. I can still (barely) fit into my size 8 jeans (I say barely because I've been eating more than a non exercising person should be eating and am getting quite pudgy!).
I have easy pregnancies, which is a big part of why being a surrogate is a good option for me. I don't typically have much in the way of nausea and morning sickness. So those pregnancy indications aren't there.
I get emotional, but that hasn't really started yet. It's close though ~ there were a few times today where I could feel tears starting to form in the back of my eyes as a response to something that I wouldn't normally cry about. Soon even the silliest, sappiest commercials will make me bawl like a baby!
One symptom that has started already is a teeny little pain that I get if I move too quickly ~ if I stand up from sitting on the couch rapidly, it feels like a little troll is stabbing me in the belly. It is not a big deal, just a reminder to take things a little slower.
So though I don't feel very pregnant, it's there, growing. And I stop occasionally and think to myself ~ "oh yeah, I'm pregnant". Eventually, it'll be obvious and I'll feel little kicks and turns in my rapidly growing belly and won't need any reminding. But this first trimester, it's different.
But no less important. There is a life in my tummy! One day it'll grow up to be a person probably taller than me! It is going to affect two lives in ways they can only begin to imagine ... as well as lots of other lives in smaller doses, along the way. It's a fresh start, a clean slate. It could be a person who changes the world... It could be the first female to walk on the moon or the man who invents a cure for cancer. The possibilities are endless, as they are with any new baby.
This journey is so incredible and I'm looking ahead with great excitement that I... I get to be a part of it.
And how cool is that?
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You are so freakin' cool. You really really are.
I'm with flutter. You rock.
I can't wait to read all the updates the next months.
Wow. Simply wow.
Ditto flutter and mamageek. You are way cool!
And you are blessed that you have easy pregnancies. I had morning sickness until about 25 weeks, and at about 26 weeks my pre-term contractions started. Blech. But totally worth it. :)
Seriously, this is so awesome... what a wonderful thing to do for another family... do you deliver here or in Hawaii?
I am still getting over the news of you being pregnant! I can't even digest anything else right now. Except to say that it is good that your pregnancies are easy...I hope this one continues to be, too. Can't wait to follow you on this journey.
Big hugs!!! Heidi
What a fantastic life change. I love that you are doing this!
You are awesome, sister!
So beautiful, what you are doing!
Man Amy. You really are amazing to do this.
This is the kind of thing I dream about doing, but don't ever follow through on.
You are amazing to do so!
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