Wednesday, January 9, 2008

January Blues

It appears I am in a funk. In fact, I'd say it's more than a funk. I'm pissed off and I'm not sure why. I have no reason to be... I have everything I need, and most of the things I want. But somehow I can't stop focusing on the stupid little things that aggravate me on a daily basis and it's starting to get to the point where I don't even feel like myself anymore. I do have some things to look forward to, like a trip to Hawaii... spending time with my kids... there are always things to read... things to knit... And I'm not sure what is preventing me from looking at those things rather than the tiny, insignificant, irritating things.

I'm hoping it is a hormone thing... I have started my medication for the upcoming transfer for the surrogacy. The medication is a temporary thing, as I'd like to hope my funk will be.

So if I'm quiet lately, that's why. I try to live by the mantra that "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all". My poor family and co~workers are having a hard time avoiding my nastiness but hopefully my readers can.

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Tyler got his report card today. He did really well and is reading at an end of 2nd grade level, which I'm very proud of. One thing she mentioned a couple times in her comments though (she = teacher, sorry), is that he has been whiny and sad and frustrated lately. Hmmmm... sounds like someone else I know. Ahem.

So at dinner tonight, we talked about what's making him sad at school. Seems he is having a hard time getting his work done on time ~ either due to not being given enough time or probably more likely, not working when he should be working. Gavin suggested he concentrate more. (is this child really 4.5 years old?) One thing I can do to help is to pack him smaller lunches... He doesn't have a lot of time for lunch and often he's eating while everyone else is playing, because I'm giving him too many food groups. Oops. So my packing him smaller lunches will help him get out all his talking at recess rather than during school.

During this conversation about a time and a place... We talked about eating when it's time to eat and working when it's time to work and most importantly, listening to moms & teachers when they are talking because they almost always have something important to say and if you aren't listening you might miss it and get in trouble. When I asked my boys if they remember what happens when they get in trouble at school, Gavin promptly replied: "we get drowned~ed".

10 comments:

Victoria said...

January Blues? I'm just kicking them. They suck and I don't even have the hormonal funk you do.

My Boy (7) is exhibiting lots of emotion and stress these days too. Where do they get this from? *weak grin*

Take care.

Girlplustwo said...

oh babe. lows make us appreciate the highs. just make sure you are taking care of you. xo

MamaGeek @ Works For Us said...

Amy, it's definitely the hormones. That and winter of course. Concentrate on Hawaii my friend. Can I come along?

painted maypole said...

drowned-ed? wow, you're strict. ;)

hope you feel yourself soon. and it's OK to share the hard stuff with us, too. :)

Family Adventure said...

Get drowned-ed?! Yeah, that was my first thought, too :)

Amy -- OF COURSE it's hormonal. And maybe some subconscious stress over what's about to happen?

Hang in there! And don't worry about venting a bit online. I'm sure I speak for all of us, when I say we can take it!

Hugs! Heidi

Amanda said...

I do believe those meds put you in an awful state. Forgive yourself and trust it'll pass soon!

~Ria~ said...

WOW! I didn't realize you guys practiced water torture in your house. LOL!

Sorry about the hormones. Hopefully it will be better when you get on the progesterone and it balances things out.

Anonymous said...

Drowned-ed? Aww...

Hope you're feeling better soon...

thirtysomething said...

HA! "we get drownded" THAT is funny...things will improve on the school front for your guy, I am sure.
And don't worry, January just sucks no matter what usually. I think it is the let-down of the holiday cheery hustle and bustle that we do for a month, then so long until spring. It is hard to stay our normal cheery selves, and I am sure in your case it is also those hormones you are taking. Yikes! No experience here, but I have heard tell...

Ice Cream said...

I had to cut back on my kids' lunches as well. I was packing them what they usually eat in a 6 hour period at home. I finally learned to pack just enough to be eaten in 10 minutes and then have food ready for them when they get home. It still bugs me to only send them with half a pb&j, three carrot sticks, and small bag of pretzels. *sigh* But it seems to have helped a lot.